Should have stayed in bed I think!!

Have you ever had one of those days where you think to yourself you really should have just stayed in bed?

That was me today!! Guess it didn't help that it was the first day back at work today, and two weeks of not getting up to an alarm clock, being able to stay in bed till I had come to properly, not getting out of the pj's till lunchtime was a rude awakening as it was...... Then to top it off I had a late night, then got woken by some loud bangs, only to wake up to see one fence panel smashed to smitherens, my BBQ blown over and the other fence panel on the verge of snapping!

So after dragging my ass out of bed, through the shower, getting everything ready for work and munch ready for school, i find myself in the garden at 8:30am in the morning doing a botch job of trying to rescue my fence from further damage. 

I also then find part of the shed roof in the back garden, so i haven't even braved looking in the shed to see how bad it had flooded.... going on the ignorance is bliss theory with that one!!

After retrieving my bin from down the road where it has blown, I get the first school run of the year done, and I plod into work thinking i can ease myself into it, and try to make sure i get on top of emails and the like, ready to  hit the ground running tomorrow.... but no! I end up dealing with a huge crisis and a case of ass covering due to people finger pointing, all before lunch (lucky me!)

Anyone else having as good a day as this yet? 

But wait, it gets better :0/

My neighbour texts me to tell me the felt off my roof got stuck on their fence and she's put it behind my shed. So i get home to find out the bike shed out the front has had all it's felt roof blow off, which mean that one is probably leaking too, I have to go back out in the garden to re-do my botch job, and have to finish of the ass covering report ready for the meeting tomorrow morning.

Fook me, after all this I really do think i am ready to scream and/or cry.... well if I'm honest it had all got to me by this point so had had a few tears in the car on the way back home already (I'm such an emotional wreck at times!!)

I do know one thing..... I had told myself I had drunk far too much alcohol throughout December so was going to cut back for a few weeks, but tonight was not a night to start that!! I have been good though and just stuck to a couple of small ciders and a glass of vino!

I guess there were a couple of positives to happen today to make me think...

Although there is a pay freeze i have still been put forward for a payrise, which would be great if that goes through.... it's always nice to be told by the director of the company that they are screwed if you leave them.... whether that is truly how they think or they are just saying stuff they think you want to hear who knows?!?

And I am thinking that there is an opportunity in front of me, although i am still trying to decide if the complications that go with it could be worth it.... i sometimes think I just think too much, and sometime i think i am in the position I am because i haven't thought enough? Complications doesn't make it not worth it.... but it also makes everything harder to start with.... and that's true of any situation - isn't it?

I also know I think more clearly when I write stuff down (hello?!? why do you think i even started doing this blog?). I don't necessarily write for people to read it, more for me to organise my thoughts a bit, as i know I am not always rational and have a tendancy to be emotional.... writing helps me say what i need to without feeling like I am black mailing someone just because i wear my heart on my sleeve sometime...... 

I wrote a letter today (ok an email, but that IS an electronic letter!!). It says how I feel at the moment, what I hope, and what I am not doing even though people assume I am..... Whether I ever actually press send on it, or say it in person, or press delete I don't know... When do you say stuff like what i need to? Is there ever that perfect moment?

Right bed i think! Lets hope everything in the garden stays where it should tonight!! Wish me luck