First week is done and all i can say is TFIF!!

Looking at what everyone is saying out there in the wonderful world of social networking I think we have all had a similar thought.... going back to work after a couple of weeks off is not popular!!


So glad to say I am also a survivor!! 


And now it's a Friday night, I'm sat in by myself in my PJ's drinking tea - how rock n roll am I? :0/


I'm still mulling over in my own head about what I am doing and thinking? I have a tendency to speak and act, before I think it through, and that gets me into trouble some times!


I need to be more careful about decisions I take as I have to get the knob-head off my house this year, for my own sanity! It's scary sometimes being responsible for all this, not having someone with me to discuss and share the decisions... I wish I did have someone as I'm not that anal about being independent but that's not how it's worked out?!?! 


I know a lot of people think they know me as I'm pretty honest about a lot of things in my life, but the truth is there are very few people who REALLY know me. 
I've been very adept over the years at learning how to show a certain front and only allowing the weaker stuff out behind closed doors, guess it's a defence mechanism.... only one person has ever really got past that, and maybe I made a mistake doing that? 
It's sometimes a subtle difference in understanding the difference between the fact I don't need someone to look after me, I just need someone to support me.... Hell I don't ever want to be thought of as needy!!!


I guess I'm just frustrated at the moment. So many different things to juggle between home and work, and people to deal with.... some of them could do with growing up though! And some of them could do with getting over their Napoleon complex!!


Life isn't about the journey, it's about how you get there. 
And happiness isn't a static state, it's constantly changing, and you have to be willing to change and take risks. 
Remember, you can't go backwards through life, only forwards!


Anyhow, my alcohol free night is nearly over. Needed to do this as the last month has had quite a bit of excess, and it's not healthy to continue like that lol!