I know that this isn't an uncommon problem for a lot of people, and more so for dads than mom's on a regular basis but i can't help feeling so deflated this year.... the one holiday i have always enjoyed has kind of been ruined by the fact that the munchkin is going to spend xmas eve and xmas day with his dad....
I would have been shaky even if i was still with the bloke, but now i am on my own it's just magnified!! And i know my friends will rally round and i won't actually have to spend the day alone, but it's still not the same as i won't be waking up at home, with my son on xmas morning and seeing his face when he comes downstairs and see's the presents.... and before you say it no, having my xmas day boxing day is not the same... you can't track santa as he delivers the presents on boxing day.
It's just put a dampner on everything, even my birthday to a certain extent as it's just sitting at the back of my mind like a shadow. I'm trying to shake it but it's hard, this is the first time i've had to deal with this and knowing this isn't uncommon doesn't help....
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