First day back at school for the munchkin today and in typical british fashion it was absolutely peeing down.... How come winter has hit so hard so quick? Had to have the heating on and had a fire going last night, and it seemed to be dark by about 7:30pm - pah! No fun!!
Mind you at least the weather is kind of fitting for my life at the moment.... a little bit dark and quite a lot of wind disturbing everything. I guess i'm preparing myself for the worse but i really hope it doesn't turn out like that as it will break my heart to say goodbye, but i don't know if i'm good enough for him....
At the moment i think he is questioning if i am the one from him, but we do have so many good times together and we get on, i hope he doesn't give up on us before giving us a chance and trying to improve things. He's been stuck in his cave lately doing the bloke thing, and sometimes i think that is the problem.. not just his but everyone's, why do we have to think so much about stuff, why can't we just go with the moment and not worry so much about the future. If you think too much then you'll never get anywhere.
All i want to do is live a little more in the moment... i do have to worry about the future about somethings as it's not just me i have to look after, but i just want to live now, enjoy the time i have and love the people i'm with. If you get on and have a good time together, then enjoy it rather than question it.
I want to live a life of no regrets
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