Well was back to work today after a pretty good weekend tbh, although i did wake up from one of them dreams where you aren't sure for the first couple of minutes if it was real or just a dream as you have a wierd feeling in the pitt of your stomach.... do you know the ones i mean?
Saturday had more peace and quiet than usual as the munchkin got picked up early as he had a wedding with his dad to go to so all was quiet in the house which makes a change. Had a friend from birmingham down and someone i used to work with round as we had a bit of a girly night out. Was a good laugh as we went to turtle bay and cafe parfait, although i could probably have done without mixing my drinks quite so much.... i forget i'm not as young as i use to be and the days of having anything and everything without worrying about how i'd feel the next day is probably behind me a bit now :0(
We got up on sunday and just lazed around really. Watched the rugby match which was close game and listened to some music!
I really loved sunday though because things feel so much better again at the moment. It really is the little things that help though with all this.... the fact that the bloke helped to tidy up without me saying anything, or the fact that he'd just come up behind me and give me a hug or a squeeze mean more than any big gesture.... i don't know if he realises how he makes me tingle when he comes up behind me and gives me a kiss on the back of my neck......
It made me chuckle as the 'self help' book i'm reading at the moment i'd gotten to the chapter which describes the fact that men and women keep score differently and the way to fill up the love tank (seriously?!?!? that's what they called it!!) is different as to men the big gestures score big points yet to the women any gesture be it big or small score the same which is why men focus on doing a big task and don't understand when a woman gets miffed.... their example was that to a bloke going out and earning a good wage to provide a nice home is big points yet don't understand why women feel unhappy with that and complain about being ignored and forgotten.... they don't realise that to a female that scores just one point, the same way as coming home and asking about her day, or cooking if she feels to tired to also scores one point.... if you look past some of the schmultz in the book it does make sense with what it's saying (although love tank is pushing it????)
The only fly in the ointment this weekend is talking about xmas with the munchkin and finding out he wants to spend xmas eve/day with his dad.... makes me sad as xmas is important to me and not having him here xmas morning is something i'm having trouble getting my head round.... guess i'll have to though if that's what he wants :0(
I can see the next hurdle coming and i just hope that what has started this weekend there is more of that to come rather than being a blip..... good things take effort and work but when they feel like this they are certainly worth it!!
Well better go and catch up a little x-factor lol
xx
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