Love stinks.... isn't that what the wedding singer sang?

Found this quote and it kind of sums up how i feel at the moment:


“Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like 'maybe we should be just friends' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain.”


Kind of appropriate at the moment given what's going on..... i sometimes wonder how many times a person's life implodes on them? This is the second time for me and i don't know when the dust settles and i'm going through the remains what will be left. I hope i don't lose those people that are important to me, i hope that they discover that although things can be hard that there are somethings worth sticking around and fighting for..... but i tell you what if this does end up being completely shitty then i'm damned if i'm ever doing it again, as i think i'd rather suffer the loneliness than this heart wrenching pain ever again.