Had a phone call today that has taken a huge weight of my mind and given me the gift of being able to close certain chapters of my life...... I can finally start moving on as I can now remove the knob head from my mortgage!! yay! that means the worry about him screwing me over has been vastly removed. the only real interaction I know need to have with him now is over munch...... once everything has been signed off then it will be PARTY time to celebrate!!
That means what is left is the stuff out of my control.... I wish I could control it as that's just the way I am, but I know I can't.... all I can hope is that it finds its way back to me, I know it isn't wrong but that isn't my decision to come to..... others have to get over their own past and realise what they feel now for other people isn't wrong.
I wish I could have the one I want turn up on my doorstep telling me he missed me, just like he used to, but I guess that is wishful thinking.... instead I'll go to bed, and maybe one day I'll find someone will feel like that???
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