Guess I'm feeling a little sorry for myself tonight as I'm still in pain with my back.... It feels like I have so many knots and lumps in it, especially at the top, just where I can't reach!!
I know it's bad as my bum hurts too lol!
Don't mean that in a rude way either (just saying!) it's more of a pain when walking about..... So if you see me rubbing my bum cheek, I'm not purposely being rude haha!!
Its been like this for a few days, a back rub yesterday helped loads as it just loosened everything up, but back to hurting now, although I do think some of that is down to tension after this afternoon!
Had an argument with knob head today over the phone while I was at work... I can't believe just how much his view of the world is twisted!! You may think that it is just me being twisted but seriously, the double standards being applied in astounding, and the fact that he thinks I'd be ok with the idea of him and bint being in my house for a week to look after the munch I can't believe... told him she is never to step foot in my house and that is not negotiable!
I'm just so annoyed with myself at how upset I have got over this, mainly out of sheer frustration.... Guess i find out who my friends are though as they are the ones who have checked i'm ok!?! I even had Kingy and next door offer to come round, bless 'em!
I think the other thing at the moment that isn't helping is the usual hormones and the fact I'm just feeling a bit sorry for myself the last couple of days as I just don't have anyone who misses me, or would miss me (not including munch in this btw).... It's a lonely place to be, and it would be nice to think someone does think of me sometimes, but guess I'm the one that people get over quickly (or just never get in) and I don't know why?
People obviously have a type and I'm just never 'it'. Whether that type is in looks, age or the fact its always someone they work with? Not sure why I'm never someones type? Guess I'm not pretty enough, my legs aren't long enough or I haven't got the right colour hair? Perhaps I should work on the pretending to be someone I'm not? I need to treat people like shit as that's how everyone seems to like to be treated?
I do know I have my own version of crazy and I've never denied that! But in the grand scheme I thought my plus points outweighed my not so plus points.... Obviously I'm wrong!
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