Hmm?

As the new year looms in and i look back this year has been a roller coaster for me. 


The first half the year was great, it's been the end of it that has been a bit shite if i'm honest. I've been trying to balance myself out but sometimes it's easier said than done, and emotions cause a lot of problems... christmas this year has been on my mind for a long time and i think i was just dreading it for so long, and then there is just all the other stuff with work and home going on.


I know what i wish i can have out of 2012, there's nothing complicated or huge in there but a lot of it is out of my control..... i guess you could say i have a few options, whether they come to anything who knows.... I also know which option i would like, and again it's that's out of my control.... 


Lack of control is not something i deal with well, have always been a bit of a control freak i guess. Just hope people realise that the freak in me can be a little crazy at times but is worth hanging in for the ride.... i hope that my pluses outweigh my negatives?!?!