Well that's Christmas done, i made it through not having munch for it and there was a few tears (well quite a lot to be fair but I'm an emotional wreck at the best of times), and Christmas wasn't the same at all this year, but it's over and I'm damned if I'm doing that next year....
Now i just have get through the next hurdle and that's another one that hurts me to the core as i can't see it is the right thing, but i also have absolutely no say in it either as it's not my decision.
I wish it was different but maybe i saw more possibilities than they did? or maybe what expect out of it is different as I've been through a really crappy relationship that looking back i should have ended 4 or 5 years before it did, but due to circumstances i didn't, and so i don't necessarily have the rose tinted glasses anymore or the idea of a Hollywood ending.... all i can hope for is that they come to the same conclusion and if they do that it's not too late.... he is my lobster :0(
Lets see if 2012 is the year i can cut the last string to the knob head possible, as the house is the last thing he can hold over me and screw me over with.... and i think once i do that, it will be such a huge relief as i can finally be free of him, or as free as i am going to be able to be until the munchkin turns 16!
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