Oh my, this has been an odd one.... oddly perfect, oddly unexpected, 'oddly' odd, just that....
What turned into a day, then a weekend, ended up turning into a whole week of the bloke being here, and i guess what felt odd, maybe to both of us, was that it didn't feel weird or strange really.
I think to both of us it felt comfortable and safe and to me just what home should feel like!
I think it was also good this week as he got to catch up with some of his other friends, ones who he knows himself he has been a plum about and ignored.... but it all seemed to go ok and i think everyone had a good time. I wish he would just realise exactly how many friends he does have here that care, and how many of them understand him... there are far more that 'get' him than i think he appreciates. Not saying they all know whats going on, or he'd want to share all his problems with, but people that genuinely care about him and understand the different moods he has.
I think this whole week has took him by surprise and confused him somewhat?
However I just know that though now he has gone to visit his friends in his 'favourite' place that he will forget about what he felt here and get swept up with all that is up there, the newness of it all, the fact that he can be up there and forget anyone down here, including me.... I just wish he wouldn't as i do miss him.
He has a home here, not just here with me, but with other people too.... yet i don't think anyone is ever good enough to compete with them?
I know for me that things are complicated, not just with all that has been happening with home/xmas/the rest of that suff..... and it may get a whole lot more complicated in a few days depending on what goes on during my visit home, off to visit the family and old school friends for a couple of days... i just guess i need to see if i do bump into a certain someone?!?
Then when i get back there is the whole chris thing, in amongst other bits n pieces.... including the dreaded xmas day :0/
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