some people!!

This week is definitely an up and down one, and I don't think I am the only one having this kind of week... 


Monday was a bad day, kind of all over the place really, yesterday wasn't too bad... think being busy helped. Plus I actually switched off and unwound in the evening as the bloke came round and we had a couple of drinks in the garden as the weather was so nice, and grabbed some Chinese.


This morning was pretty good too lol! Think I just then have got a little frustrated as the day has gone on!


Some people just get worked up over the wrong things..... One of the blokes friends, who I'm friends with as well, just won't let it go about not being invited to the moop wedding! 


Think what started her off was someone she had plans with on Saturday that got a last minute invite and so can't go out with her now as originally planned, so I ended up getting the texts that said she doesn't understand why she's been purposely excluded as everyone else has an invite?! Then I got the part where, at one time she was supposed to be a bridesmaid, but now she's not even invited..... I think her  bloke even ended up sending them an email giving them an earful from which ever jungle he's currently in.


I don't understand why some people get such a bee in their bonnet over things?
Whatever happened between all of them happened before I knew them so for a start, I'm not interested in even getting involved in that part of the discussion! I like them all, they are all really nice people but there's obviously something gone on, but that can stay between them!


Plus, the thing about being a bridesmaid? As far as I know there are a lot of females that say to friends they'd have them as a bridesmaid if they ever get married..... when (if) that ever happens you can't hold passing comments as true.... Or is that just the way I see it?


Plus she seems to forget I'm not invited either!! 
I was supposed to be going but I assumed that offer didn't stand anymore when me and the bloke broke up..... Don't get me wrong, it would have been great to still go and see them on their big day, but I also guess that the bloke wouldn't want me there, and they wouldn't have said the invite still stood as they are his friends really, not mine, not in that way.....and they wouldn't have wanted him to be uncomfortable but I do hope they saw from when I was up on his birthday weekend that we're good together and are still friends... Its a shame as this weekend it would have been good to have that to look forward to as I could have done with the distraction from the other wedding going on, and the timing with munch being away for it worked out, but you know what they say about the best laid plans and all that!!


There are more things to worry about that not being someones bridesmaid. I'm just trying to keep busy so I don't think about the things I'm feeling about myself this week.... nothing like a double whammy to make you feel like that I really do have something wrong with me, that makes those I care about not care about me.... or maybe that's not the right way to phrase it? I know that in one case he does actually care, there was/is just something else but I have my own thoughts on that still.


All I can say is I never really hide the way I feel about anything from those people I trust, whether that it a good thing or not? But at the same time I'm not as stupid as people think I am sometimes, so I'm not sat round waiting on a 'what if' either! I've learnt over time that there are people that lie to others and people that just lie to themselves. The first type of people are the ones I never trust and never really see the real me, but the second type see me for me but just can't see themselves the way I do, and that's a shame most the time! 


Anyway think I should head off to bed now, going to ache in the morning as I've been digging in the garden this evening and laying more turf down as it got a little cooler. The garden is getting there, but still need more turf, the garden is obviously bigger than i thought! 


Wish I had the same kind of rub tonight as I did last night as it would certainly help the sore back!!