Maybe I really am that insignificant? I know that I feel sometimes that no matter what I do, its not right.... Like Munch coming back from the knob heads wedding having been given a new digital camera. The one I bought him the other Xmas is obviously not good enough!
I get fed up sometimes as being seen as always the sensible one, that has to do all the grown up stuff.... I know I do that because I have to but I also have a lighter side to me.... Coming in at 4:30am each morning, teasing and playing with the bloke, flirting with toblerone at work and Mikey, just having a bit of a giggle.... That feels more like the real me than the serious person, just I don't get the chance to leave the serious one behind for too long!
I do think about just selling up and moving somewhere completely new sometimes, but the practicality of doing that is harder as I'd never give up my custody of munch, and it's not fair to just uproot him on a whim! If I had a reason to move elsewhere then it would be something to talk to him about, but until then (or if it ever happened) I wouldn't put that thought in Munch's head.
Already had tears the past day or so, think the wedding, tiredness and just the realisation finally hit him..... maybe it would be the same if the situation was reversed? I don't know, the only thing I can judge what munch was like was how he was with the bloke when he lived here, and as much as the bloke probably didn't like the lack of 'me' time that you get with a kid in the house I do know Munch loved having him here.... it was never a case of trying to replace his dad, more like he gained an older brother type character that he could mess around with and have tease him..... and to me that is the right way to go? Shame this type of thing doesn't come with a manual, someone could make a fortune if they came up with one!! Lol - marketing idea *winner*
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