back on the wheel again.... usual chaos at work, nothing ever really changes so at least now it doesn't take me by surprise!
Weekend was pretty good, went out for a meal down Poppadom Express with the bloke.... I ate more than I should have then we walked up through town going to a few pubs on the way. We bumped into some of the blokes work peeps, and so for once I wasn't kept separate from his friends which was really nice, although i'm guessing that at this wasn't planned there wasn't really much choice in the matter, just wish that this would be a conscience choice sometimes as it hurts to always be shut out!!
Am feeling like i need to have a computer chip installed though at the moment before i get taken notice of..... it feels as though i'm in competition with the PC or the phone at the moment... i understand a lot of blokes like playing on the computer, and i admit i'm a bit of a facebook junkie at times, but it does sometimes get to the point where i feel like i could just disappear and it would be hours before it got noticed!!
Sometimes this modern age is not all it's cracked up to be as people lose the ability to actually communicate face to face. I'm probably just as guilty in some ways as it's only on here i'm really saying some of the stuff that goes on inside my head.... some of it's because i'm scared to say stuff out loud, and some of it is because i know i'm overly paranoid and sensitive, and so by putting in down in words it stops me completely losing the plot..... i wish i could actually completely trust someone so i could say these type of things to a real person rather than the cyber-world but so far i don't feel there with anyone yet...... Maybe one day i'll get there?!?!
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