The weekend is finally here. We're off out into town in a bit for a bite to eat.... not sure the bloke is up for it too much but i hate spending the weekend that i can actually go out without having a child around, stuck indoors doing the same thing i do for the rest of the week..... it might be hard for some people to understand but it is one of the things that upsets me still, feeling like i have wasted one of the few precious free weekends i have, especially when people take theirs for granted, and enjoying nights out when i can't, as it just makes me feel like i'm not good enough for them as they only seems happy on nights out when i'm not there!
Other than that today has been relatively chilled.... other than a few slaps in the face from our pasts....
I know we all have histories but i hate having it there in cold hard format, especially when i don't think the past is always in the past for some people..... My history is very much that, i know that, but i don't know if other people's history is the same or if it still lurks there in the shadow's of the present, with them unable to completely let go which means they are prevented from going forward. From the outside looking in sometimes it seems if their past says jump, they just say how high, and i'm just forgotten.........
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