OMG my parents and technology!! They are both one step away from just keeping their money under the bed, yet when I am trying to tell them that what they think is the password isn't working as I have typed it in and not been accepted, they almost jump down my throat as if I'm lying.... And they wonder why I don't come back very often???
Its quite sad really as although this is the house I grew up in it doesn't feel like home really anymore, just some sad place where old people live when you look round at the things my dad has done to it over the past few years pandering to my mom's hypercondricatism (that a word?).... Stair lift, mobility scooter, hand rails in the bathroom, chairs that are raised, down stairs toilet and a chair in the shower?! You would think that there are people in their 80's here, not my parents!
And when my dad goes to work like he has this morning my moms life must be so sad as really she is house bound, too scared to go out without my dad there in case she falls over or something. That's no life and I hope that I never get to that stage. That's why when people tell me off for doing stuff as my back hurts for a few days after I ask them what am I supposed to do?
In this life once you stop doing something because it's too hard or causes you pain then you are never going to go back to doing it, and I refuse to be told I can't do something! I've learnt there are things that it is better to admit defeat on, because if I did them then someone would have to come and just re-do it, like having the bloke come round and build my steps last week..... I have learnt that being a brickie really isn't in my skill set! But that's different from not even trying.
I guess the same applies to feelings as well as physical stuff, you have to try even if it hurts?
I know there are somethings that regardless of if it has hurt me before I would try again, because I know the pain was never done on purpose or out of spite, but has been more a case of circumstances......
Then there's conversation I've had a few times with one of my exes from when I was 17 about as much as I would have liked something to work I know it wouldn't!
He's told me a few times that I was the one from him and I always would be, that I was one of the best things he ever had and that he was just stupid and young when we broke up.
Was talking to someone I used to work with last night and he was asking how things were going, and was saying that there are people that really don't know that they let a good thing go when they let me go, as I was a lovely person and would make someone a really good wife.... and that I was also easy on the eye. LOL!
I asked him if he had been drinking and needs glasses!
Well need to get ready, finish visiting and then I'm heading back home with munch before I go nuts (well more nuts). I can say I've done my bit and come seen every one so I should be able to go back to my life in peace for a little while again.
I love my own little home, it's my own space and means I don't have to deal with the parts of family that annoy the hell out of, just wish....... well I can only wish, as I can't do anything to make what I wish actually happen
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