It's Saturday morning and I've not long got out of bed..... Munch may be 11 now but I still don't get a lie in really unless he's at his dad's. It's not that I have to get up with him, but having some bash and bump around doesn't really lend itself to staying asleep lol!
He seems to be ok again today..... last night he got himself all upset but couldn't (or wouldn't) tell me what was wrong. He just kept saying that he'd been having bad memories but then not telling me what they were.
I hate it, as seeing him upset gets me upset, but I can't let him see me cry as that would just make him worse. It seems most time when it gets like this it is because he is thinking back to when me and his dad broke up and it really does break my heart to think that I have permanently damaged him in some way....... I know for me that it was the right choice as his dad is a complete waste of space and if I had stayed in the situation I was in it would have killed me inside, as being with him I was already only a shadow of the real me, but no parent ever wants to hurt their kids for the sake of their own needs really.
Just hope it was a glitch, but I do know that even now his dad doesn't understand what I have to still deal with. And that decisions he takes for his own selfish reasons reflects back on munch and triggers off things like last night.
Guess I should crack on with the boring bits n pieces I need to do this morning... Should be meeting up with Elvis later for a coffee so that could be interesting.... see where it goes?
Then hopefully going to the cinema and a few drinks with Dan later, might also see who else is out and meet up with them for a drink?
The sun has come out now although how long it stays here I don't know, so probably leave trying to turf this weekend, although would have been great to get some more of that done..... but seeing the sun after the crappy weather this week, and some of the picture flicking through the photo frame has reminded me that this time last year we was in Majorca on holiday..... I miss those times.
Guess I could do with another holiday but it's not just where you go away to, it's also the people you go with that make a good holiday!
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