Going the distance

Been trying to decide today if I have enough energy to go visit my family this weekend.


Not a hard task some might say, but with some of my family it is getting harder and harder to bite my tongue when every single thing they are doing I disagree with!! 
I'm not harsh, or a bitch, so I will end up and just bite my tongue, because if I actually said what I was thinking I would hurt them..... and the hurt you get from words don't heal like physical injuries.


And trust me, after the last week or so I know how the words can hurt! Why is it some people insist on treating you like an idiot, when all you have ever done is help them? It's not nice to get things thrown back in your face for no reason, to have them use the fact that I don't use or manipulate people against me. There really are some shit heads in the world!!


The other thing about going up is it is using up one of my days holidays. I do know that if I do go with munch, I am only doing one night as I don't think I can contain myself listening to my parents for two nights!!


The good thing about going up though is catching up with old friends. Being so far away that just 'popping in' isn't feasible you do find out who your true friends are, and having lived away from them for 14 years now, it's the ones who have stood the test of time and stayed true friends I really do miss.....There are other people I miss too, as it's not just the ones I grew up with, distance isn't always about a physical distance..... :0(


As munch gets older I dread the thought of him becoming distance and I really hope he never feels about me what I feel about my own parents...... I can't explain it but unless you've lived it, it is hard to explain. I know my sister feels the same about a lot of it, but she's in a more difficult position as she lives closer and does need their help in more ways.