No not cause I stink... But more for the fact I keep my true self wrapped up in layers. And some of those layers make me cry!
I'm chatty, I'm friendly, I chat shit to pretty much anyone really, but just cause I do this don't make the mistake of thinking I am an open book.
I'm pretty sure I can count on the one hand the number of people who know more than half of what goes on in my life or what I'm thinking or feeling ...
It's my self protection, wrap myself up in layers and never revel all of me to anyone as then they can't fully hurt me! The last time I let someone all the way in the broke me in half and it took me a good year to get myself on to an even keel again. And I don't think I'm the only person that does this?
The world is full of people that wrap up a lot of hurt with a big beaming smile, and just cause you can't always see the scars doesn't mean they aren't stil there.
I think like most people I don't like being like this, I would love to find someone who wants to take the time to peel back the layers, someone who I can be my whole self with, including the crazy sometimes, that won't freak out and run when they see it!
I don't mind dealing with their crazy too in return, as long as I know I can trust them to have my back, to be loyal to me, then I will move heaven and earth for that person if I have to. Nobody is perfect, all I need is perfect for me
Am I asking too much?
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