10/07.31/10.06/12.24/09
Well not been on here for a little bit, thought that if I started writing how I felt last week I might just end up upsetting myself so I kept myself distracted instead.... think it worked on the whole?
I did well saying good bye to munch last Monday, no tears to embarrass him as he left on his school trip! I feel really bad for saying that in someways I enjoyed having a week to do what I wanted when I wanted as he wasn't here, doing things that most people take for granted.... but even though I enjoyed it I spent the whole week with this little niggle at the back of my head, a small sense of dread in case something happened to him, or he got upset...
I'm not under any illusions as I had purposely arranged to do something each night so I didn't have time to think about missing him, I know that if that was my normal life I wouldn't be going out like that every day!
Had date night out with backseat Betsy on Monday, where we ended up going and having drinks with the program manager and lead architect.... that was a random night, especially as neither of us two was actually drinking alcohol lol!
Tuesday night was a bit of a naughty one for a school night.... chinese and 4 bottles of wine with Maddy. I crashed at hers so I could have a few drinks but didn't think it would be a few bottles!!
Wednesday was a girls night out to Frankie & Benny's and then on to see Magic Mike.... OMG i need to find me a man like that! He can move those hips and he is h.o.t!! Shame normal men don't look like that, either that or I'm obviously not looking in the right places?!
I just get men that like to send me picture of their ding-a-ling.... and in most cases if they were that size I wouldn't be broadcasting it, plus on the whole they aren't pretty things! Have NO idea what it is about blokes taking pictures of their bits, I haven't even hinted I want these pictures, they just get sent!
Thursday was the only day I didn't have anything arranged, but I got back from work that night to a postcard from munch.... I think by then I was ready for him to come home, I missed him being here, and I've had too many people who mean something to me not around lately.
Went out last night to, bumped into the King, and Maddy tried to set me up friend... think he got the message I wasn't interested after following us round for half an hour! A few of us went out and danced till 3:30 this morning, it was a good night and just what i needed, although I have some random foot injuries this morning.... gutted that i missed Mikes text though when he finished work, could have finished the night off quite well if I'd have seen that!
The bloke was round this afternoon collecting the rest of his things, just a few bits of furniture he needs to pick up now. He's moving next week.... and I guess I'm just a bit sad that he's not going to be around as I'll miss him, and I know munch will miss him too.... Hopefully it all works out for him, he's in a new place where he doesn't know many people and doesn't have the history there that he had when we got together, and he doesn't have to deal with not feeling part of her history as her son isn't that old, so maybe he will get the family he craves there that he didn't feel he had here? I just hope he doesn't cut people out and that he stays in touch as I really don't want to lose him as a friend, and i think i will.... men are historically crap as a species for making an effort and staying in touch, and if I keep being the one to get in touch with him it will just seem like it's something it isn't...
The one thing I got told when I moved that far away from home, no matter how far you go and what you do, always remember that your home is still your home and there's no shame going back to where you started from, as it's better to realise when things aren't working and go back to somewhere that you was once happy, than to put up with something that doesn't work any longer and be unhappy fearing people would see it as a sign your admitting defeat..... I've thought about me going back home a few times over the last few years and if it had been just me I might have, but I just couldn't bring myself to up root munch for my own selfish reason.... So many of my friends that had left Birmingham have all gone back there now it seems!
Oh well busy week ahead at work, hope I get to see the bloke before he disappears (hopefully not out my life for good though), have another Saturday night out already in the calendar as munch is with his dad again next weekend, I have one date already pencilled in for Saturday, and Toblerone is back in the office the following week so the fun can start again ;0)
As for the numbers at the top of this page..... well that's for me to know and you to find out haha!
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