Broken Bird

I feel completely and utterly broken at the moment, this week is just terrible!


Yesterday I had barely turned my laptop on at work when i got a phone call from the school to say munch had had an accident and he may need to go to hospital for stitches.... So I spent all morning being bounced around the NHS trying to sort out my poor baby! He's taken a huge chunk of flesh out of his shin and we ended up spending four hours in various medical facilities to get bounced from one place to another!


In the end we still landed in A&E where they looked at it, x-rayed it and said they couldn't stitch it as there was no flesh left there TO stitch!! Then I went back to work into the middle of the shit storm, only for it to continue today.


I cried in the car yesterday on the way to pick munch up from his prom, just because I'd spent the last six hours worried about him as he'd been in pain, and today I think I can honestly say I've never been so mad! It got to me so much today I burst into tears in the car on the way home again... and no job is worth that!


All I have wanted, more yesterday than today was to be able to come home to someone who could just hold me for a minute so I didn't worry and tell me it's all ok, but I haven't got that as I am the one who has to strong... and this week I have felt far from it, I'm just broken and not sure how I am going to get through this week?


I'm not as strong as people think and soon I am just going to break completely, not that anyone actually cares, and why should they? I'm no good for anything or anyone these days!