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Well I survived the dreaded first day back..... only 14 more working days till the next week off lol!!

I knew today wasn't going to be pretty... the disadvantage of checking emails while you are off, but at least I knew what kind of things I was walking into today, and I'm hoping I managed to diffuse both ticking time bombs? At least for this week.... 

I do sometimes wonder if I disappeared whether I would be missed.... Sometimes just in relation to work and sometimes more in general. After all a job is just a job and I know nobody is indispensible, so although it might be difficult, someone can come in and pick up what I do.... does the same apply to home? Munch would still have his dad, and now he has a step mom, would anyone really notice if I wasn't around? Don't think they would.... I might be a passing thought every now and again, but other than that I don't have anyone around to really miss me.... I don't 'matter' to anyone these days. I wish I did, but anyone who ever matters to me, throws me to the side for something better and history can only repeat itself so many times before you start to believe its you not them.... After all, people who say they care, or cared once upon a time, never really follow through and actions speak louder than words.... things are easy to say but so much harder to stick to!


We all get lonely days get stuck in a phase
I can see the sun is shining bright right on through the haze
I complain to say is this really my life
Now that I'm over you, and I'm sober too
I can finally feel alive
But I won't give you my heart, cause it don't break twice