Zappers

Well, time really does fly! Can't believe we are already half way through January!!

I've tried not to make stupid new years resolutions this year, ones that would be forgotten before the first week was out, instead I really am trying to make this year one of looking forward and basically looking out for me.

So, what have I done? 

I have decided that alcohol is something I should stick to in moderation, rather than where I had got to with it last year, as I think if you are saying to yourself that you are probably drinking more than you should then that is not a good place to be! Don't get me wrong, everyone needs a time when they can blow off steam, but all in moderation. So it is back to leaving the drink to non-school nights rather than after every bad day. 

Also I am trying to say sorry to my liver for the abuse it got through December so it is back to drinking hot water and lemon in the morning to flush out the system a little bit. Trying to cut down on the sugar, as work last month was a nightmare with cakes/sweets/biscuits always being around. Some of this is normal new year stuff but i'm not pushing it as a huge thing.

I have said to Munch that once it starts getting lighter then we will try to go running. I need to do something to get fitter but I can't afford a gym and find them so boring! In the meantime, I've brought Zumba on the Wii.... well might as well have a giggle while trying to move about?!

So that's all the stuff for the physical me. As for the other parts I've tried to change my mindset there too, and move away from people and situations that zap my energy!!

The last few months have been a bit of a roller coaster if I'm honest. Being tired because I've been working shit loads probably didn't help matters either or make me less emotional..... but i have made some decisions about some of those roller coaster humps. Such as those with Kingy, I've come to the decision that if he wants me in his life then he can put me there! If not then I'll just accept its too complicated as I can't keep doing this....?! 

And that goes for several things really, I am tired of being the one that always does the running (figuratively of course.... actual running i might start doing lol)! 

Some of these people have been in my life since I was at school, but if they don't make the effort to stay in touch then I am just too tired to always be the one that always does it. 

I guess the saying 'the trouble with distance is you don't know if you're gone or just forgotten' is true, and you find that when you move away from home like I did. 

Don't get me wrong, its not that I've fallen out with anyone, and if any of them reached out and contacted me I would certainly respond, its just the energy of the contact always being one sided.... Birthday cards, Christmas card and that's it for now I guess?!

I can't be the only person that have these people in their lives though. I am sure that if you think about there are people from your past that are guilty of the same thing. And if not then you might want to ask yourself if you are either just great at removing energy zappers, or if you are the person that everyone always has to chase?