Well, are people ready?
Only 2 more sleeps and Christmas is here! 9 more sleeps and we can say goodbye to 2012 and start with all those new year resolutions which will most likely be broken within the first week lol!
New years always represents time for change, fresh starts, new beginnings....
Can't say 2012 has been the worst year I've had but I know its been a roller coaster. Whether that continues into 2013 or not I don't know?!
This year has been mixed - Its was the year I finally got my freedom from the douche bag as the house became mine, it was the year when friends have moved away so we don't get to talk as much, it was the year when work completely overwhelmed me and pushed me to the limit, and it was the year when i realised that who my friends are and who I can count on.
I've learnt a lot about myself, about the fact that strength of character is not about being knocked down, it's about being able to get back up after... to not have regrets as life is too short, that no matter how much people say I can't do something I find a way of getting there eventually. Maybe not in the most graceful way but I get there.
This year I have munch with me for Christmas so its going to be a quietish day with just the two of us. I don't really have him boxing day so hoping that I can go see a few friends rather than sit in by myself, and then we have a fancy dress party to go to on New Years Eve. Then its only about 7 weeks till we go to Washington (eek)!! So excited about that!!
I need to think about what I want to do, seriously, and see what I do about work, where I want to go career wise. That's a hard one as I have always just followed my instinct and grabbed the opportunities when they appear. So far it hasn't done me wrong but I guess I should take more control over things?
Not sure I can take the same control over my home life as some of the things I want are out of my control so I think for now I just leave it and see what happens?!
If the people I have talked to about the future are right, then the spirits are with me and I have a 17th century guide from a past life steering me through? It also means I am in for an interesting couple of years (in a good way)!!
In the meantime think I am going to kick back, visit friends, drink mulled wine and just chill.... might also book another holiday ;0)
Not sure if I will be back on here before the new year so I'll just say this now...
For all those in my life that have been there for me and seen me during the lows and highs this year thank you. And whether I talk to you daily or occasionally you all mean the world to me and I hope you have a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year.
And remember the New Year may be a new beginning, but that doesn't mean things in the past can't be undone as do-overs are always possible lol
Much love xx
Monday, 24 December 2012
Tuesday, 11 December 2012
Tick tick boom
Been a while since I've wrote on here.... it's not that I haven't wanted to but things/life have just kept me occupied.
Sometimes I think that if I actually started writing what was going through my head I'd either not be able to stop the verbal download, or I just come across as a complete head case..... or maybe it would be a bit of both? Who knows?
It sounds like such a cop out but work has still been keeping me busy, though the last couple of weeks I have just lost my motivation there. Maybe its because everyone has got to the headless chicken stage and I am at the point where I know what shit pile is going to land on me next week, but I am also back to the 'do I, don't I' question of finding a new job? Guess its something i just need to keep mulling over for a bit? Its a scary choice when it's more than just you that would be impacted by the wrong one.... and is the grass REALLY greener on the other side?
I've also done the Christmas run up to Birmingham, but now i have the last bits here to do and i just haven't found the motivation to do it... even writing Christmas cards seems too much this year. At least I've got the visit to the parents over and done with.
This weekend was a good one.... my birthday was Saturday and so went out with some friends to celebrate. Had a really good night out, and didn't feel too rough the next day, which considering the amount of shots we did, is pretty good going!
I think if anything the one thing that I was most disappointed in was people who I thought did/would care not even sending a happy birthday through.... there's a couple of people who I thought was better than that but obviously they don't care as much as I thought they did.
Its this time of year that I miss people being around.... I miss being able to talk to them, to laugh with them, to chat absolute shite with them when tipsy like we used to. Friends like that are few and far between, and I wish that they thought the effort was worth it too, guess I misjudged them?
Oh well... got more drinking down the German Market planned this weekend, as this month I have every Saturday night free, and then there's the Christmas party (well christmas pub crawl) to look forward to. Those nights usually turn into a good laugh.... and maybe for one of these events I will actually remember to take my camera out for a few photos that aren't blurry?!
Sometimes I think that if I actually started writing what was going through my head I'd either not be able to stop the verbal download, or I just come across as a complete head case..... or maybe it would be a bit of both? Who knows?
It sounds like such a cop out but work has still been keeping me busy, though the last couple of weeks I have just lost my motivation there. Maybe its because everyone has got to the headless chicken stage and I am at the point where I know what shit pile is going to land on me next week, but I am also back to the 'do I, don't I' question of finding a new job? Guess its something i just need to keep mulling over for a bit? Its a scary choice when it's more than just you that would be impacted by the wrong one.... and is the grass REALLY greener on the other side?
I've also done the Christmas run up to Birmingham, but now i have the last bits here to do and i just haven't found the motivation to do it... even writing Christmas cards seems too much this year. At least I've got the visit to the parents over and done with.
This weekend was a good one.... my birthday was Saturday and so went out with some friends to celebrate. Had a really good night out, and didn't feel too rough the next day, which considering the amount of shots we did, is pretty good going!
I think if anything the one thing that I was most disappointed in was people who I thought did/would care not even sending a happy birthday through.... there's a couple of people who I thought was better than that but obviously they don't care as much as I thought they did.
Its this time of year that I miss people being around.... I miss being able to talk to them, to laugh with them, to chat absolute shite with them when tipsy like we used to. Friends like that are few and far between, and I wish that they thought the effort was worth it too, guess I misjudged them?
Oh well... got more drinking down the German Market planned this weekend, as this month I have every Saturday night free, and then there's the Christmas party (well christmas pub crawl) to look forward to. Those nights usually turn into a good laugh.... and maybe for one of these events I will actually remember to take my camera out for a few photos that aren't blurry?!
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